soilborn14

Sometimes I feel like I don't deserve love..... A heart conceived just to bleed it all out, forced through thinning veins by self-noosed tightening chains. Somehow removed from my path, I felt I had so much more to offer. A seed I've spawned now roots to wrath, this twisted inner child I fathered. If I've felt all I'm going to feel, why carry out this numb ordeal. The ill inside you all, I'll steal, to let you know my heart was (at one point) real.  

Today dragged by. Another calendar square I wish would hurry up, I wish it would end. What kind of life is lived in future tense? I want out..... but it is in these days that we find true growth in life. I watched an elderly lady brandish a plastic fish as both a companion and weapon. Her communication with this fish-weapon gave her the faith that she could summon transit. In a way it worked. She thanked it. Yesterday morning a white-robed animal screamed obscenities at an empty street in my line of direction. My headphones blared as I clenched my fist in defensive anticipation that he may swing the blunt wooden tool he carried under his ar

How long can you hide in hell before angels burn your wings, Built up your twisted prison cell from shattered crowns of fallen kings.